{ i have FINALLY been released from outpatient prison and i feel EXHAUSTED! i cant believe its finally over. im actually kind of sad thinking about the whole ordeal. a lot of things happened, and i met a lot of super cool people, and i definitely learned a lot about myself }

{ im actually being emo now!! i started wearing makeup daily (just like eyeliner and mascara but still) and i LOVE IT i look so Sickkkk its great. made some cool bracelets and got a sick ass watch. started collecting monster high dolls more seriously. i have a silly doodly style now and i like to draw sometimes. Listenign toa LOT of emo music which is kind of funny. but yeah. i think the experience definitely had some silver linings. }

{ ive also been SO ENJOYING STRENGTH TRAINING!!!! I love lifting heavy things. its so fun. im trying to build a Sleeper/Awake Build. maybe like a lucid dreamer build. idk. but its so fun!! i really like it. my bestie likes rats... Would u like me if i were a ... Gym rat..... heh..... }

{ i dont really know what im going to do with this site. i dismantled a lot of my links and deleted some pages And some of my resources are GONE (Rest in peace main page sudoku...). i also dunno if im gonna keep this blog layout or make a new one. i was absolutely DREADFULLY Ill when i created this, and i wonder if it shows... but its also sick as hell so idk if i really want to get rid of it. and it took me FOREVER to finish. #SunkCostFallacy }

{ but ya! im backkkk !! i want to start websiting again because i miss this space. So creatively freeing and it felt like a good way to get my thoughts out on Various Things. i love digital collaging icl. its so super duoper fun. but i also jave sooooo much to fix and idk if i really Want to do that rn. whateva/... We live and we ball }

{ I want to learn jumpstyle. I want to dress more emo. I want a lucid dreamer build. I want all of monster high roller maze doll line. I want to get some heely type shoes so i can skate around school during my frees. I want to make bracelets and play minecraft and watch Secret Lives Of Mormon Wives. so many things to do!!! Bye gamers. Love u all! }

{ ps i really hope school isnt keeping tabs on this anymore... erm... aloha if u r.... Heh/... }

{i have been trying to think of a good way to address the events of the last couple of weeks, and i frankly dont think i can explain it all properly so this will have to do. if any school administration is reading this, i will be very sad. also, this is not for you, its to update my web friends on my DISAPPEARANCE. if u keep reading You'll be uncomfortable and I'll be uncomfortable, have funnn }

{ essentially, about 2 weeks ago a couple girls in my grade reported my injurious behavior to school administration, and exposed this blog to the peering eyes of teachers and faculty. which i still think is insane im so upset they didnt reach out to me first but its whatever i guess. anyways my blog and site got ratted out to school ppl }

{ immediate action was taken, and now im in Mandated Therapy for who knows how long for like 5 hrs a day. its proving to not be completely terrible but im still horribly annoyed at the entire situation. and i had to remove so much of my website. many of my personal musings, blogs, or other Relatable Content has been removed from the published site or the code files themselves. which broke my heart to have to do, by the way. i felt like i was ripping pieces of my soul out from my body and tossing them into a garbage disposal. But i digress.... }

{ off topic but also MY SISTER AND MOM READ THESE DEEPLY PERSONAL POSTS ERMMMMM I FELT VIOLATED IT WAS INSANE. my sister told me my writing sounded like sylvia plath though which made me laugh a lot icl }

{ anyways now i just dont really feel comfortable posting on this site anymore, at least for the time being. idk how long theyre Keeping Tabs on me but i wamted to address this more long-form-ed-ly. and if youre looking for a Potentially Interesting post/page of mine, chances are it's been deleted link-wise or just wiped from the site files. also if any irls are reading this (idk why you would ngl) i still havent forgiven yall icl. im being petty and bitchy and annoying but it will take a hot second to come around. so. }

{ i already miss posting, i really really hope i'll one day come back to this without feeling like im being watched. Thanks guys , }

{ ps im so pissed i got reported so soon after perfecting this layout. best blog layout ive ever had and its gonna sit dormant for forever. butthole, man. serious butthole. }

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