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i should really stop mentioning my sleepiness in these posts, but im Tired. and i need it to STOP !!!!
probz gonna be a shorter blog post. just wanna update the site with SOMETHING of substance. which i guess idk if a blog post counts as something of substance, but oh well, better than nothing in my eyes. and seeing the 'last updated' hours go up makes me Sooo sad so
sports bra came in the mail yesterday !! sooo happy to get one thats a) not so stretched out it just Doesnt. Work. and b) that actually fits ! rollerskated earlier and Omg i get the sports bra hype. I Understand Now!! never wanna wear normal bra again Ngl. whatever its fine, still more supportive.
still feels weird to be Essentially Shirtless at home tho. oh well ill probz get used to it
got my mom to line the inside of my bag last night. got so angry and frustrated and upset about sewing. and i dont even like how it looks with the lining. debating ripping it all out. but maybe i just need to wait
today was a silly day honestly. didnt feel real thru most of it. and now im just tired and i want to sleep and i want to not be plagued with the most strange unusual dreams ever
im gonna copy and paste my last dream i remmeber into here from me telling it to Panini bahaha
"had a dream where the guy at work was at a public library and was handing iut little bits of paper with links on them / and [PANINI] put it into [THEIR] computer and it showed a new method of pregnancy where conception began in your mourh / and then it actually contained some sort of malware because then [THEIR] computer wrntnCrazy and just glitched the rest of fhe time / and we called a repair guy and he actually went Insane when we rold him what happwned"
and it was so weird. actually so weird. and so annoying. i keep having the MOST WEIRDEST dreams involving pregnancy and it is so weird and i need it to stop
legit had a nightmare (idek if it was nightmare i just feel bad calling it a dream) where i got like. Raped. and it was so weird and awful and bad and i dont even know what caused it. havent even been taking benadryl lately. maybe my brain is still sick, even if the body has recovered. either way i need my brain to stop creating the most awful most disturbing scenarios for me to be in in my dreams. need sleep to be a time of rest and peace. not creating the worst memories ive ever crafted
been studying a lot more russian today ! spent like half of study hall just doing my Duolingo practice with toes, it was funny !
gonna see if anyone wants 2 Play Minecraft because now the body is tired but the brain is awake. dont want to go to bed this early eiter
hoping i sleep better today !! hopefully. anyways, love yall ! hope everyone is feeling ok out there, and hope everyone feels even better ASAP !!
post signature: i love neocities, i love how much everyone shares on here. i love it so much, i love reading and i love seeing and i love imagining. i love realizing and re-realizing over and over again how many individuals there are. i love reading all the writing !!!
wondering if i should make another blog page. this one is taking too long to update. there are too many words ! i've lived so much since i started. maybe i should start a new one. i dont know, might think about it later. still love this layout though, so maybe i just need to find a new way to format blog posts. we'll see ! if anyone has any Tips on making their blogs update faster PLEASE Let me know bc this html file is taking forever to save now ... :(