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Hi this post is gonna have mentions of Restrictive Eating again. I guess this is my life now πππππ
i havebeen . SO TIRED. alsi my days have been sooo boring. i wake up at like 6 am to go for a walk (bc i now need 15k steps before i can eat 3 meals a day(it used to be 10k(will it keep getting worse?))) and come back and sit on the couch in a daze bc my body feels like its FAILINg like my legs will hurt so much lately theres been like a pulsing in my knee (?!) and my stomach will feel like its flipping utself inside out And my head will feel like its in the cloudsss (but usualy i can get 7k steps here! so thats nice)... and after that ill have to clean my room (at least make my bed, theres clothes and shit everywhere and everyday i feel like im cleaning it SUCKS) and then Only after rhat have i earned my brekky
and i have a few SUPER YUMMYYY breakfast foods actually ! current fave is oikos triple zero vanilla (90cal) + half tbsp of chia seeds (35cal) + half cup of frozen blueberries (35cal) it tastes like ICE CREAM and it keeps me ... relaatively full....... i also sometimes have 2 boiled eggs for 150 cal and some cucumber, but ive been craving sweets lately. one day i also had rice cakes (2 for 35cal each) + 2 wedges of laughing cow (2 for 25 cal each) + smoked salmon (like 100 cal of this) and it was SOOOOO GOOOODDDDDDD but it was 220 cals and that scares me a lot Icl.
anwyays after my morning stuff i try and get more steps (bc i need at least 15k to eat 3 meals. Rember?) so ill pace my room Or the living room if no one else is home. ive been trying to do some muscle work bc i dont wnat to lose muscle mass and Ed Onlien is SCARING ME, so ive been doing hip bridges and Leg ups and Arm ups and like. other things idk the name. but i cant do as many as i want because i get sooo tired and out of breath BRUH IT SUCKS. i dont want 2 get weaker..... so i try
and then on days i have work starting @ 3 i try to eat a meal at like 1-2 so i dont feel like im gonna DIE (Did this last thursday it fucking sucked when i was doing my cleaning stuff i felt like i was gonna pass out. AND I HAD TO GO ON A WALK RIGHT AFTER TO HIT 15K.) ans then i go to work. if i get 15k steps befroe work i can eat somethijng afterwards, if i dont i cant
so after work if i get to 15k ill have a meal or smth. i try to keep it light bc ive been weighing myself AFTER my evening walk, and i dont wanna get too much food weight Iykyk. one time i had such a salty meal and gained 2 pounds from the day before and i wanted to kill myself and i did like 26k steps the next day. bruh it suckedd.... anyways after that ive really only been having small stuff b4 my evening walk. we just recently got a ninja creami so ive just been treating myself to a little cup before my walk. the 2 ive made so far have only been 60 cals per cup, but a blueberry one that im freezing rn will be 80 per cup and im Lowkey terrified. I hope i eat it... maybe ill split it into 5 portions so its still 60 or smth idk...
and then i go for my evening walk which is usually only 5k steps unless i havent hit my goal by the time its done, in which case i lengthen it. i try to do most of my walking in the morning bc its cooler and im Usually less tired, but soemtimes it doesnt happen. and that Sucksss
and then after my walk i have to shower and go to bed so i can get enough sleep to waje up at 6 am. to walk again. My whole life has been walking + waiting to eat + working + walking + waiting to eat + walking and it is sooo exhausting... but i think its working so I cant complain (:
anyays, lowkey not much else has been happenogn lately. i was suposed to go into the operating room on wednesday to observe, but the surgery center had a water leak and FLOODED so they had to cancel surgery for that day. luckily we could reschedule, but it sucked.
Guy at work bought ppl starbies 4 his bday and asked if i wanted a latte yetserday and i was like Sure why nto! until i looked it up and found out ut was 190 CALS BRUH WHO IN THEIR RIGHT MIND............. So i was stressin about ti all fucking day and night omg i didnt know how tf i was gonn refuse after i lready Kidn of said yes omg it scared me half to death i genuinely coudl not function. And then luckily he got me a nitro cold brew (5 cals. but i ignore that ahaha) and om git was a BLESSING i almost cried of relief omfg i dont hthink anyone will ever undertsanding. Bruh is it gonna be like this forever...
And i lowkey wanted 2 do 2 pumps sf vanilla syrup but then i thought it would be too obvious... If asked Why a nitro cold brew i could always say i like black coffee but its kinda hard to explain sugar free shit w/o . like. u know...........
Guys i lowkey love ed reddit. r/shittyfoodrestriction is actually MY FAVORITE THING some of that shit is nasty afff but omg... someone made a tortilla + smoked salmon + cucumber + tomato pizza gthing and OMGGGGGGGGG IT LOOKED SO DAMN GOODDDDD should have bene on the Good site omg... it genuinely looked heavenly.. i would make it if tortilla wawsnt 80 cals and smoked salmon wasnt like 100..... i miss my salty spicy food...
luckily ive been able to find some alternatives !! made some frozen peas yesterday and added paprika + salt + red pepper flakes and they were sooooOOOOOOOOOO good omg genuinely delicious. and only 70 cals fpr 70 grams. Life hack. also my afve spicy seaweed is only 30 cals per pack its SO YUM TOO ! and then imitation crab is 90 cals for 85 grams! and if u chop a whole cucumber (40 cals) and add some soy sayce + sriracha (probably 20 but i havent been counting sauces . probz should start) uts gneuienly SUCH A GOOD MEAL u feel full from the cucumber and u get protein from the krab and u get flavor from spicy sayce... AND ITS SPICY SO U HAVE TO DRINK WATER AN THAT ALSO FILLS U UP. Omg . i got this idea from shittyfoodres reddit LOL didnt know imitation krabcould be so good..
i bought some heart of palm to try, its 50 cals for the whole can, but idk when ill make it. i hope it tastes good, 50 cals a can is SOOO GOOD....
Long ahh entry sortry guys. im supposed to go get some mor eyogurt for my brekky tomorrow but im so tired and i need to get my steps in (im less than 10k rn bc of work BOOOO). Guys prayaing i can eat my strawana protein ice cream (60 calsππππ)
Heart of palm tasted NASTY. SO FRICKING GROSS OMG... but my dinner was sooo good i mixed some chicken with salsa omg... YUMMMMMMMMMMMMMM. and then i had bell peppers with cottage cheese sriracha dip :)
also made a blueberry protein ice cream w my ninja creami it turned out AMAZINGGGGGG i let my mom and sister share most of it so i didnt feel tempted to have too much (the whole thing was like 380 cals) but i think i still had 120 cals of it... but my daily total is still 420 so i dont care Too much. but i did prep an ABOMINABLY high cal apple cinnamon ice cream that is LOW PROTEIN its literally just apples + cinnamon + almond milk i think its like 400 cals bc i used like 4 apples im NOT counting cinnamon. but my dad comes back tomorrow so hopefully he eats a lot of it LOLLLLL ! ill probz prep smth else tomorrow as well but idk what rn. i wanted mint but im not in the mood rn so... i wanted to try banana + blueberry + peanut butter but pb is SO HIGH CAL and my mom hasnt gotten the pb2 low cal peanut protein powder and bananas are ALSO high cal. So im just scared, icl. maybe ill try to make a raspberry lemon sorbet.... that sounds DELISH
also just realized we still have 1 box of konjac noodles from my dad's health kick so i may try those tomorrow. theyre 6 cals a noodle package so im hoping and praying they taste good. i wanted to like heart of palm SOOO BADDD bc heart of palm pasta is so low cal, but i guess konjac is even lower cal. hm
wanst able to go on an outside walk today so i just paced around the house reading thea stilton books on my libby app. 22k steps rn, i might try abd pace my room to get 3k more. im so full from my blueberry ice cream...