215 {overhaul}
I think i need to do another blog rehaul ASAP. this doesnt reflect who i am currently. maybe i will go to a starbies tomorrow and code myself a new blog page... I will use my Starbies Cal Calculator tonight LOL !!!
Life has been lowkey boring, havent been up to much toher than walking.
yesterday my fam went to a fancy steakhouse for my grandma's bday and i was soooo so so so so SO scared all week bc 1) it was EXPENSIEV 2) no cal counts anywhere. So guess who ended up being able to IGNROE both of those things ! i had a great time, ate soo much food (even ate gluten which im allergic to LOL) and everythign was SO FUN!! i had the leftovers for lunch today, will probz end up being my omad lol. im kind of incredibly pissed that im like. fine? with eating so much rn, but i think i will go back to my normal restriction pretty soon.
something i didnt notice until i started doing this was just how AWFUL my sweet tooth is !! i was looking back at all my meals and Brooo almost all of them are sweet.. my dinners have usually been protein ice cream, breakfasts are some kind of yogurt parfait or pancake. only lunch is usually savory, and ven then i usually skip it or dont enjoy it LOL! but yeah, most of my cals are from sweets.
literally ended up eating TRHEE SLICES OF CAKE yesterday but omfg they were SOOOOO GOODDDDDD one was a carrot cake, one was a red velvet cake, and the other was a simple sweet almond cake. omg they were all DELICIOUS i loved the almond cake soo muchhhh I may have to find a good low cal copycat one online. bro it was so good i had some more today (dounting it as leftovers too) and Wowee,,,,...,. In love. also had a macaron that was DIVINE we have one left and itll probz be my little pre-walk snack. Just in case. i think im gonna log like 1k cals for that lunch today omg it was sooo good... and i dont even wanna THINK about how many cals i had yeserday omg. not only did i eat soo much food i had so much alcohol too LOL my mom and my aunt both gave me half of their margaritas and then i had some champagne that was passed around the table. So i dont eve want to think abt the alcohol cals. Haha. ha... ha...... Oh god
the more i think abt it the more anxious i get so img onna Switch topics !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
i have been getting more and more into sf sweeteners and like. actually cookng my own food. i made a REALLY YUMMY cauliflower soup like a week ago, i have been making Delicious egg white pancakes, i made spicy zucchini chips the other day, and ive been making such yummy coffees !! i really want to get sugar free/fat free/low cal reddi whip, but my mom is AGAINST IT which is PISSING ME OFF.... she bought costco brand whipped cream which is 25 CALS per 2 tbsp instead of 15. Im not touching that No thank u. Nooo thank you!!!!!!!!!! inhavent been counting the reddi whip lately, but i probably should. ive been highkey soo loosey goosey w myself these past few days, but im thinking thats just bc of my period. highkey the timing for that was PERFECT im so glad i got to eat so much during the time of the month when i Probably would have had to anyways Hahaha. but ya
anyways, i bought sf smores syrup today that i wasnt expectin to be good but itv was DELICIOUSSSS OMG im gonna try it in my pancakes next time i make them bc WOW !!!!!!!!!!!!!! so yummy
i want to buy some oat fiber so i can make even lower cal baked goods, but i dont wanna ask to buy it online and i havent seen it in stores... Boooo
was at a grocery store earlier today looking at cals for protein bars, protein shakes, n protein coffees when an employee JUMPSCARED ME by asking if everything was ok and i Know she meant it in a usual customer service way but JESUS i nearly had a heart attack I thought she knew what i am. It scared me half to death icl. ended up buying some stuff that i lowkey dont know if ill get the courage to eat :(
i WISHHH i was a protein bar girly but i highkey cant let myself eat 250 cals in a little bar. like it freaks me out idk why a protein bar has to be THAT MUCH. i wanna try and omad a protein bar one day, just to see if i can do it. but there are sooo many yummy protein bar flavors i wanna try them all!!! i wish i dint have celiac so i could try fiber one bars, bc they are low cal and seem SO GOOD (also they have fiber. And i need to shit)
our treadmill is STILL BROKEN and i have been wanting a walking pad but theyre expensive and we already have a treadmill. Im so pissed it broke it actually makes me want to rip my hair out. Boooo !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
anyways. thats the gist of whats been happening lately. i get my wisdom teeth out this week and im freaking the freak out. need to buy some sf jello and prep some low cal ice cream. MMmm......