october 27, 2024. 3:03pm
i am soo upset i havent been blogging as much lately. ive done basically 15 posts in 2 months, which is soo much less than i used to. im chronicling a lot of my life physically in my journals (just started my 4th one a couple days ago !) but i miss seeing all my digital writing. i want to go back and add better dates to all my past blogs tho, like years and stuff. looking back on some of my pages im realizing the timeline might seem very weird for people just stumbling upon my siet LOL !
i have a macbeth test tomorrow, and i want to absolutely never have to take it. i hate reading shakespeare, and plays in general, and i just do not care at all. i liked it when lady macbeth said "will these hands never be clean," tho LOL ! that went pretty hard ngl. actually i care abt her. lady macbeth is soo fire i love her
every time i go to work i feel like they HATE ME more and moreee omg... main guy @ work seemed very passive aggressive for the last week and i DONT KNOW IF IM MAKING IT UP (bpd moment) OR IF ITS REAL. AND I WANT TO SCREAM AND CRY AND NEVER GO BACK TO WORK AGAIN
ive been having soo many dreams about work actually, and it makes me wake up crying because i dont want to !!! i wnat a break !! i dont want to have to go to work. ugh. i love money, though. i also have been having such a difficult time sleeping. but thats not all that new, i guess :(
ap psych is getting hard because i GENUINELY DONT KNOW WHERE IM SUPPOSED TO FIND THIS INFO ??? i should just get na actual textbook, maybe. but i dont want to... maybe ill look for a pdf textbook soon . Lol !
watched kubo and the two strings with Bestie yesterday, almost cried. i lovee laika stopmotion movies. coraline is also soo good. and laika is such a godo name (for someone who cries about laika the dog once year). ugh i love them so much. i should wathc some more laika movies
i love emo music bro. 001 playlist keeping me alive. I LOVE YOU AD0RKEN I LOVE YOUUUU. in the heart is one of my all time faves.
i hope i feel more productive this week. i did NOTHING last week (well, as little as i had to) and it suckeddd ngl. getting used to my contacts tho. i have to finish watching macbeth today..... sigh
i finished a scarf on friday and its actually very cute ! i will donate next time the crochet club has a meeting, even though all the club leaders actually scare the life out of me
omg unrelated but there's this one girl in the grade above me who SCARES ME TO DEATH and i see her EVERYTHING and she keeps GLARING AT ME and SIDE-EYEING ME and one day she LOOKED ME UP AND DOWN IN A VERY CONDESCENDING MANNER and she scares me so much and i cant deal with her omg helppp help me helpp HELP
ummm what else. i dont know. ive been feeling veryyy weird lately. not very good, btu also not awful-awful (btw mention of self harm in the next couple lines. skip reading the part in asterisks if u dont like that)
*for some reason the cuts i made on my thighs like a WEEK ago are not fading all that well !! and they normal fade/heal after a few days, but its been quite a bit longer than that and i dont know whats happenin But its stopping me from cutting more so yayyy ??*
ive been SUCH A JERMA FAN LATELY i actually love him. i need to add more to my jerma page omg i think he's SO FUNNY. ok i hvae to finish studying macbeth now byebyee
7:39pm
i actually cant deal with macbeth i HATE IT i DO NOT CARE. ugh. i didnt finish the play i was trying to watch... i got SO BORED of it. whatever..
started another scarf today ! i really like the yarn im using, its SOOO SOFT ! i love crocheting u guys im soo happy i decided to get back into it
i do not want to go to school tomorrow. im gonna cry. i dont wanna take a STUPID ENGLISH TEST and i dotn want to go to the class with the girl who thinks its ok to make CUTTING JOKES with people she DOES NOT KNOW WELL. ughghgghhhggghhh. goodnight u guys